i've kind of been thinking recently of the prince's tale. and i think that it's one of the saddest things i've ever heard. i'm going to ramble for the rest of this post about that.
severus saw a pretty little girl playing outside (or wherever he first saw her) and started to notice something- she was, quite obviously, a witch. so he planned and had this idea for when he was going to come out of hiding and talk to her, and then he basically blew it that day on the playground. but it was then, when they were so little, that he started to fall in love. he didn't know that it was that love that would basically control his entire life, that would lead him away from voldemort, and that would save harry- who saved the wizarding world. so, in a way, severus saved the wizarding world. in a way. but then they started hogwarts and severus met james, and james was a complete arrogant jerk. but he had a thing for lily. so severus had this enemy, and lily didn't understand why, because she didn't know severus loved her. all he could do was be her friend, and, for a few years, that worked. she hated james and loved severus's friendship. but the dark arts started to call to him. and lily, muggleborn as she was, disapproved, and she started to get suspicious about him. so came that horrible day- when james attacks severus and he called lily a mudblood. and when lily said that he called every other person of her parentage a mudblood, he couldn't say that she had never been a mudblood to him, that he loved her. but, what if he had? what if she knew? maybe she did know, but what if he told her? would everything be different?
so lily went to james, who also loved her. and severus had to watch that, he had to watch the love of his life go off with his total enemy, and fall in love with him. that must've been so unbearable. and even when she got married and had harry, he still loved her. when he heard the prophecy and went running to dumbledore, that must've been the most scared he's ever been in his entire life. he asked for help, being in a placed that would have cost him his life, had voldemort known where he was. so he asked for voldy to take pity upon lily. and voldemort did start to, but lily gave her life for harry. and that's when everything changed. severus turned everything around, going to dumbledore again and went from the death eater to the good guy, taking everything from the dark arts and turning his back upon voldemort (it's a good thing voldy was gine at that point, or he would've killed severus) to follow the path dumbledore laid out in front of him- to protect harry. and when severus saw harry for the first time, and saw how much he looked like james, but also saw lily's eyes, everything was right there. he was the son of the man he hated, so he did perceive harry to be just as bad, but he also was lily's son, and he had her eyes. and when severus saw him, everyday, he saw those eyes on the face of someone he disliked so much. so then voldemort came back, and severus was faced with what he had feared for 13 years. voldy knew who severus worked for, and severus had to try to convince him that he would be a double-agent (but really, he was double-crossing him) it would've been so easy, so simple, to turn his back upon dumbledore's plan of protecting the child he hated, but he didn't. after all those years, he still did love lily. so every second was a risk to him then.
and then voldemort told him to kill dumbledore, who also told him to kill him. and harry faced him in that corridor and screamed at him that he was a coward. but he wasn't. harry later came to realize that "he was, in fact, the bravest man [he] ever knew" (ministry of magic, 'bravest man i ever knew') and his patronus was a doe, still a doe, after lily had been dead for 16 years. "after all this time?" -dumbledore "always."-severus is one of the best quotes in the books. when he died ("look...at....me....") and his eyes connected to those eyes, so like lily's, and he saw her face, instead of harry's, in that final second. he still loved her. he gave everything, absoluetly everything, to protect harry, because he loved lily so much. he loved her for about 30 years until he died (i can't remember if lily was born in 1960 or 1961, and i really don't want to go get my book right now) and had everyone hate him, to think him a traitor, when he was really braver than anyone else. he was so clever and brave that it just kills me. the prince's tale is so incredibly depressing.
0 comments:
Post a Comment