TONIGHT WILL BE THE NIGHT THAT I WILL FALL FOR YOU

...OVER AGAIN!!!! how did i just learn of this song? seriously obsessed. i love music.

last night was the xc banquet. and i had fun, and it made me miss laughing with the team and having fun. but, really, it made me really, really glad that the season is over. of course, i love the team and i would not trade the season for anything. but i didn't do as well as i wanted to in most of my races. in fact, i was really only happy with 3. and i have no one to blame for that but myself, and i'm not really the type to dwell on such things, but that really destroyed my image of the season. i love the girls and i love the team and i love cross country, but i had no sorrow over saying goodbye until next year.

english research paper. i'm actually not that worried about it. i picked a topic (bilingual education) that i feel really, really, REALLY strongly about (like everyone knows that i hate politics, but i get really heated up about some stuff-- like this) which was not advised, but i think that i can present the opposing side with an equal balance. that's basically that only think that i'm worried about with it, though. it seems to be broken up sensibly and evenly enough that it will be manageable. and i think that it will prepare me for college papers, which will probably only ever get done seven hours before they're due, hunkering down under a swingy desk lamp and under the influence of a million gallons of coffee and powerade. i'm kind of looking forward to that, actually....

speaking of college, i've been looking up about mizzou, and oh my god, i am going to be the biggest freaking wreck if i don't get into the journalism school. it's going to be terrible. i will refeuse to get out of bed for a week. a month. my mom says that if i go to a different college (like not a state one... a community or something like that) that they have to take you or something, but i'm not so sure about that. and i don't want to do to some non-state college. i feel like the biggest nerd getting worried about this right now, but oh my god. my mom got excited about mizzou xc camp this summer, too. my... something. cousin-like person? mom's cousin's daughter? i don't know. is in the j school over there and i'm going to talk to her about what she did to make herself stand out and such. if i step it up NOW and don't do anything stupid for the next few years, i think i'll be good. and mizzou actually costs less than the school in florida i wanted to go to. oh my god i am getting so excited about something that's years away. it's keymash time, but i just feel lame doing that right now lol.

and hey, don't make me change my mind or i won't live to see another day i swear it's true!
secondhandserenadeisamazing.