You know how sometimes you just get in that damn rut and then every single place you go is freaking rut-tastic and nothing seems cool and the only thing that seems as though it could be the slightest bit helpful is taking an iron skillet to your face (because then at least your hospital stay would excuse you from school)?
Yeah. I be there, yo.
Apathy has been chasing me down with a cleaver and now has me in its cold, slimy fingers. Apathy does not know what purell is.
This explanation would be better presented through interview form between 'real amy' (ra) and 'apathetic amy' (aa [alcoholics anonymous, yo. Don't think I didn't miss that]):
ra: So, aa, i realize that you've been kinda pissy lately.
aa: Shove off, sunny mcsunsun
ra: Tsk tsk. testy, huh?
aa: I HATE LIFE.
ra: Well how have you been running lately?
aa: Yeah, thanks, ra. thanks. your reminder of that 800 is so very helpful.
ra: Hey, really?!
aa: NO!
ra: Alright, fine. Schoolwork, how has that been?
aa: I took a math quiz today and I would not be surprised if every single freaking question was wrong. I took a spanish test today and realized that, despite living side by side people from there for basically ever and growing up in the state that I did, I know nothing about Puerto Rico except for Ponce de Leon, some walls, and fish pancakes. I did none of my homework because I just don't care.
ra: Are you just going to sit there and be negative?
aa: YES.
ra: That's not particularly helpful.
aa: Do. Not. Care.
ra: You're hopeless.
aa: That's the point, dummy mcdumbface.
ra: Hey, we have the same face. You just insulted yourself.
aa: *$&@(*!!!
ra: I see.
As ra and aa have just demonstrated so wonderfully for you, I am going to fail because I did literally none of my math homework this week because I just did not care. I did English, because that I do care about. And newspaper, because that was a really big assignment. Everything else? No. What did I use my time in the library for health class for? Certainly not research. I read. A fiction book (better than Carrie and Megan, but not by much).
A cure for this apathy? I have a plan. Big, but not too big. Probably done tomorrow, after Bryan's Easter egg thing.
On another note, 16 days. Just sayin'.
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3 comments:
dooo girr you didn't say what the plan is. which is kind of a mean cliff-hanger. and i'm sorry about aa :( apathy usually wears off after a spell though...i'm rooting for ra :D
p.s. what 800 girr? because you've been great in all of them so far
MUAHAHAHA you'll see. it's nothing too big, i just needed a change.
dude, amy. STOP BEING APATHETIC!!!!! (i'm giving you my tough love.) okay, not really; i'll just give you my normal love. dear amy: i love you very much. seriously, that was only your second meet. it takes TIME to bust off seconds to break 3. you have to do it in chunks, not just all in one go. you'll do it eventually though. DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP ABOUT IT!
additionally, i may not be in the same apathetic state you are in, but i still feel some apathy too. i think this part of the school year is the most difficult (besides pre-winter break finals) because you can BARELY see the light at the end of the tunnel, and there's two months left which feels like fucking FOREVER.
but just keep trooping through. the monotony is a bit unwieldy, so just. .start writing again. or dive headfirst into something that will make you ridiculously happy. give yourself a treat (i went for a run today purely to justify going out and buying peeps at walmart then eating them. not kidding, either.)
i'm rooting for real amy too!
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