goals update

so back in august i made up my list of goals for this year. and i'm looking back over them:

school goals:
*no b's. well, actually, because of fucking history, i'm not sure how well this is going to go this time. i actually believe that i have a chance in every class but history. so, as a revision: all a's and h's in everything but history. which leaves me with only one chance for an h, but i don't care.
*at least one h. well, english is usually my best subject. and i feel like i've been applying myself a lot more this year. so maybe?
*history club. yeah, um, about that...

running:
*6:45 mile. i haven't timed anything lately. that was more for track.
*24:00 5k. i actually thought i had a chance at this yesterday. but no, i had to screw everything up. i was so stupid that i want to cry. i had nothing to drink all day, except for a few swigs of water and a glass with breakfast. so i was dehydrated. and i raced in wet socks. wet socks! even after michelle gave me dry ones. what the hell is wrong with me? that was the worst race ever. i felt better after sioux passage. i finished and almost started throwing up and crying. i couldn't even pr. i can do it at sioux passage, but not mcnair? seriously? i'm still pretty upset and furious with myself, and i really hope i reach this goal next week at borderwar.

misc.:
*get 50k for nano. well, i have an idea for my story, but it's still october.
*at least one article in the pathfinder. i don't think i realized that everyone's story gets in when i wrote these. and carrie, someone in my class brought up how your story was missing, and sonius was like "what?! but...!" and i'm still so sorry for that, because your story was so good.
*act's. well, apparently you take those next year.

brain dump:
i was reading january posts of carrie's blog (trying to remind myself that i like her, even though my english essay is a rotting piece of shit that will go un-revised by her) and she was talking about "brain dumping," so here goes:
well, i've had a pretty bad weekend. the meet was hell, so i was kind of looking forward to the team dinner. but i spent like a half hour being the only person there, and erin and i were just walking around like "so, um..." and that was pretty awkward. but once everyone (which was only 9 othr girls. that's pretty sad.) got there, things got better. but then i noticed kind of how split up our team is. erin, grace, and natalie talked. laura and i talked. michelle, ashley, and ellen talked. and laura (r) kind of jumped in when she could. it was weird. we spent basically the whole time talking, but not as a team. that kind of makes me sad. we're so split up and i didn't even notice it. but i did have fun. erin's mom made amazing pasta and death by chocolate, and ellen brought these chocolates that were seriously amazing. it was kind of awkward, though, when i tried to walk home and natalie and grace jumped up, talking about kidnappers, and insisted upon walking me home. they talked and i walked.
and today i went for a walk with my parents in a nature reserve place thing, which was pretty cool. the marker said it was a mile and a half, but i think it was more like 3 miles. but my dad pointed out this cave he went in once, and i climbed around on the rocks. it was really nature-y and neat.
but when we got home i had to work on my essay, with edits that were un-specific and made me want to scream. i tried to work and eventually saw that there was nothing else i could do.
so homework and the meet have overpowered the good things about this weekend.
i am not ready for school tomorrow. i need more rest.